Finding the Hope

Well 2023, I always start the new year full of hope, full of promise. It's started pretty much a dud. My job search is going abysmally, my health is slowly starting to turn better though, I think. Well better than in my head. Ive been terminal many times in my head ,so far. I'm not good at being sick. Diabetes has not been easy for me, or my other ailments that seem to come along with it. I hate taking any kind of medicine and now I seem to have a whole arsenal of things that I have to take. I have been eating a lot better and getting strong enough to get out more and try to exercise more is a big goal. I'm so in the hole financially. I'm trying to not think about it. We do have some help and I am thankful even though I probably sound whiny. Also, Keenan my son turned 18 last month. There are a lot of things that we have to think about and do as well with that. I am going to be his executor for awhile until he can be ready to deal with medical and financial things on his own. Autism is not easy. He wants to be independent in some ways but he knows he's not ready to take the training wheels off. I have been so thankful for his therapists at Kennedy Krieger. His behavioral therapist and occupational therapist have been teaching him and giving him the confidence to really do the things he wants to do as an adult and to be more Independent. I still have hope for this year, that things will get better, that the universe will lead us where we need to go and to help provide what we need. If I keep doing the work and manifesting in positivity it should be ok. We will see...baby steps... but I did start an ongoing 2023 playlist and I'll share that on here and some other things that strike my fancy. lol! Maybe some of my art or music or other eclectic things that I find interesting? maybe share friends projects and musings as well? Who knows? It's all a blank slate. The first crisp page of the journal been opened and fresh pen and ink to paper. I love that feeling. its all ahead.

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